Want to achieve? Feel blocked? Feel stuck? Know that life is about the journey – I know this is cliche but as soon as you start to accept this notion – life gets easier. It is not the destination – it is the steps along the way.
As a child I grew up with labels such as lazy, good sleeper and good eater – guess how I grew up? I grew up feeling lazy, sleeping alot (to escape) and eating alot (finally realising that this was a suppression mechanism). I got fat and felt unworthy and undeserving.
I married the man of my dreams, I thought that I was so lucky – feeling like how does someone so generous love me (we will celebrate our 27th wedding anniversary this year) and our life together is amazing!
Living with those labels inspired me to drive to achieve. I am very driven and the point was to dispel those notions and to conquer the feelings of unworthiness – however, this was always from the outside in – not from the inside out. I was looking for outside validation.
So my achievements included reaching an executive level in a government job which I absolutely loved, losing lots of weight and achieving weight loss goals of 23kg and 27kg (remember I was born to be fat – it was very unnatural of me to be light as I was born to be heavy), running 4 marathons which people said I couldn’t do (my first was a monumental feat – I was lazy????? – this label gave me doubt that I would complete the training – let alone the whole marathon – the last two were particularly hard each step of the way – for the whole 26.2 miles (42.2km) as I brought into the notion that I was LAZY – ridiculous!!!!
I became a Weight Loss Consultant, Personal Trainer, Pilates Instructor and Remedial Massage Therapist – entered the realm of bodywork. The cost of all this drive was ill health in the form of suffering chronic anxiety, depression, breaking 3 bones on separate occasions all in 12 months, adrenal exhaustion and being exhausted all the time.
After suffering immensely for the last 10 years, I feel like I have finally conquered the notion of “not being good enough” and would love to share. LESSONS I’VE LEARNED – the main one is all you need to know is that I need to shout this out – YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!!!!!! You were born out of love and self care/self love is essential and needed. Know that the feeling of not being good enough or if you like inner critic, come up as protection.
- My advice is to embrace these feelings, try to not to feed them by resisting and say a little thank you to them.
- You don’t need outside validation – the only validation comes from the inside.
- Listen to your heart and not your brain. Your heart knows best. Intuition is you being in tuition.
- When you need a moment take it – you are worth it.
- Know with every step in your journey, a story is created.
You are the story and enjoy the feelings which come from your existence, consciousness and finally bliss.
Find me at: http://www.embodimove.com
